i didnt ditch youu.
i seriously didnt.
its just tht she was going home my way.
so i thought i will have someone to follow home.
i asked u.
if u wanted to leave or wait for us.
until we finished going toilet.
wch took only 5 mins.
u said u'll leave.
den wad can i do.
just cos i go home with someone else.
doesnt mean i ditched u.
she'll walk with me till e bus stop.
wch was why i followed her.
i didnt run away from you or avoid you.
if i did.
then its called ditch.
i simply asked u to wait for a while.
u couldnt.
i understand.
u left.
not i ran away leaving youu behind.
so why is it that u feel i ditched u.
i wonder if that post was bout me.
if it wasnt.
den i sorry.
cos.
i've grown so paranoid about the last argument.
tht i actually.

1.go home and think about wad i said or did.
2.think bout wad u'll think bout me.
3.am not being myself.
4.control myself from saying anything.

i dont noe.
but i wonder when.
did our friendship become so weak.
that if i go home with someone else beside u.
u'll feel like i ditched you or feel dissapointed.
maybe its my fault.
and if its my fault.
then tell me.
cos i feel that ive havent done anything wrong.
that day and today has hurt me.
that day when i found out everything.
that day when u guys thought i was too vain.
cos i feel that i am who i am.
and that youu guys should have accepted me for who i am.
be it im vain or wadever.
cos no one is perfect.
i havent been able to change.
cos i feel that being vain is nth bad.
i noe i've hurt you all too.
and that maybe u'll never be able to forget it.
but i dont mind.
no complains.
its just that since tht day.
i've been not able to act like my usual self without feeling worried.
bout wad u guys will think bout me.
i hope things will change for the better.
no complains against you or her.
just wanna let u noe.
that even if u feel that i've not done anything.
for this friendship.
i still treasure this friendship.
and will countinue.


not really in the mood to post anything
maybe another day.
sry.

(never meant to criticize you. just wanted to make things clear. im sry if i hurt u in any way.)

'All good things do come to an end.
'Jaspret